Heartbreak and Tears

I'm Miserable

One word , Odio mi vida y la cojoas , as in I hate my life and fuck it in Spanish . There's nothing left for me , no more . I've felt pain and misery . This year was the worst i've ever had . But yet , this year had risen me up . I HAVE FOUND MYSELF . Some might say i've changed but i didnt . I have evolved and im loving the way it feels .
Everyone hates me . I gotta deal with the fact that im no-good . We live and learn , Make out of something we have and BREAK it .
We've been told that the teenage life is one of the greatest moments in life and it happens once in a life time , moments that are cherished

My heart is broken . My arm is fractured

Im not talking to my mom , even my dad . I dont feel like talking . There's nothing to be said . Had a BIG BIG fight with my mom ( That's normal ) It was something about my future and how it'll work . Come on , i'm fuckin' 14 for god sakes -.- WHY WONT SHE UNDERSTAND ME . Btw , my parents are divorced so im guessing they'll have the same look on how to deal with me , The "hard" way .

Good thing i have supporters who love me . Even for my cat , MJ ( i felt wanted :') , which i had never felt for a long time ) that made me touched . Amalya , a hostel babe , accompanied me to the hospital * Thanks Amalya , You're the best .

i was X-rayed . My bones were cute -.- I never thought i was that skinny . Feeling nervous of what will happen to me , i looked at the X-ray results and i was told that i MIGHT have a fracture on my left , swelling arm . In a minute i thought i was gonna die . I THOUGHT .
The swelling began , it was awful . I had cement all over my arm . I still do now . I FELT HELPLESS . My teacher called my mom who was on her way to Kl . She was shocked and drove back to get me . Although we were in serious status .

My mom hates me . She didnt even talk to me . Now , She's in Kl . Doing her thing . Which im not sure what it is . That's okay , as long as im okay now .
Im thankful enough i survived . Sorry and thank you to everyone who's been giving me support . Always

Currently , Im not talking to anyone except the people i care the most . Sorry


Tata for now readers ~